The Second Time Is Hard Too


Over the last seven months I have gone through the same Post Traumatic Stress therapy that they put our soldiers through.  It is called Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR) and it is very intense.

I Don’t Wanna!

Embarassment Bag Head 01It was bad enough to live through the abuse in the first place, I didn’t want to relive it.  Each session left me emotional wrung out, physically exhausted and mentally drained.  It was difficult to function after each session.  The nightmares and flash-backs were sometimes more vivid and intense.  The anxiety was almost constant.

I did not want to do this, but I didn’t really have an option.  I was in a safe and quiet place in my life (finally!) and my mind started defragging on its own.  I figured it was better to get help than to try to do it on my own.   I’m glad I had the support of my family.

I’m Glad I Did

While it was painful and difficult, I’m glad I went through this therapeutic process.  I’m in a much better place emotionally and free to move forward with my life. There is, of course, a huge hole where all that anger, frustration and heart ache was stored.  It is a space that I am now free to fill it with laughter, good memories and joy.

I could not have done this without the help and support of my family.  Especially my parents who were there every step of the way.  I also want to thank you for your words of encouragement and support.  Now, pass out the chocolate!

chocolate

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